pissed off tuesday just missed meltdown monday was doing good slept, kids were happy, things were looking good I dont see how I am going to be able to get Zoe and arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... i just want to scream .. people are pissing me off when I really cant deal... my agency wont give me a definente number.
iam tired I want to go to sleep but I cant i need to get things done... i feel like running butb to what to where... I would not survive a day w/o my kids... they are the only thing that keeps me going..... I knew the man that died from our work 44 and gone from cancer in 2 months. I saw a picture of him today .. i did know him , not well , but i can clearly see his face . I did not think it was him because it doesnt seem like that long since i saw him.......... If i ever get sick I dont want them to have a dinner 3 out of the last five have died before the dinner. no funeral for me ... who the hell would come..... I would probably be lucky if any of my family showed up.... man I am feeling sorry for myself to day.. you know when all your good intentions go wrong... no matter how much you try it just aint good enough........... maybe i just need to sleep.....peace ...